They rest in rows
Collecting dust and grime
Hollowed bodies with echoing stories
Sounds that never saw the light of day
Seasoned strings of bronze, nickel and steel
Whiskey stained rosewood
Hints of DNA and dead skin on trial*
Not dead, but dormant
Not finished, just resting
The first of many. My sad attempt at poetry.
* indicates my nod to Green Day
A collection of black and whites that I hope to put in a book fit for a coffee table
Quick shout out to this little gem. A small Latin Cuisine food trailer nestled in an alley, shaded by buildings with a mild draft to keep you cooled. Two tables and a chef named Alex Arango. Accompanied with a small yet simple menu, you’ll be satisfied. Stop drooling, order your food, sit and eat the damn thing and thank me later.
The fuck are you doing, Ian? Get off of social media, you’re suppose to be on vacation!
Shut up I get it.
We aren’t on vacation yet, so calm your nuts. We board in ten minutes or so… not sure… I lost count. Maybe it already left and we are just the assholes sitting in these black chairs staring at the ‘C5 Gate’ sign.
A double shot of Irish whiskey so far and I anticipate more to come.. I mean shit… I get to drink for six hours and one minute here soon. But if you were wondering, yes…. the buzz has set it. The slight numbing of the tip of my tongue and the unusual ability to not give a shit is about a solid 8/10. In just a few short hours I will be sitting on a beach with sand in my ass and I couldn’t be more excited.
But you travel all the time.
Fuck that. Who are you again?
Oh it’s the other dude speaking, aroused by Jameson. Not actually aroused you pervert. Triggered, and not the snowflake triggered.
I love this part..the sitting and waiting. People watching. The look on their faces of disappointment. Well… the ones getting off of a plane. They are going back to work on Monday and that sucks balls. I know someone who’s not going to work.
These shit heads right here!
(I actually just pointed a thumb at myself)
It’s been too long since we’ve vacationed. Like actual vacation. Okay it’s been two years maybe but who the fuck is counting (787 days). Seattle doesn’t count. I sweat my ass off in Seattle and climbed stairs in stuff. Yeah I had a blast but I mean… it’s no vacay.
Summer went by too quick. Between two jobs and my wife working her ass off, I really can’t recall summer. I mean I recall mowing the lawn every ten minutes and fixing minor bullshit but yeah sure… summer was great! We had some interesting calls while I was on shift with the FD (that screw driver call though!) and of course the constant evolving changes with the clinic. Needless to say I’m burnt out. We, are burnt out. So what better than a total reset by going to Hawaii?! Stay tuned because as much as I love to get away, I’m still taking a small part of you all with me. I’m just going to casually torture you with live streams on the beach…. like a pair of pliers twisting your nipples… or testies. Whatever you’re into.
If you’re new to my blog. I’m extremely vulgar.
Hey wait, I hate to cut you wonderful people short…. but it’s boarding time.
See you in six hours!
It’s been awhile, my wordpress followers. In fact it’s been way too long. These old shelves are dusty, eh? No matter. Updates to come within the next few weeks. My wife and I have been going fast all summer with work, schedule changes, second jobs, new tenants, a wedding, house maintenance and now I’m enrolled in an 80 hour course for medical scribe certification. As I shift gears here soon, with a little less time at the fire department in order to finish this course, what better way to kick start this temporary transition with a nice two week trip to Oahu/Maui? Stay tuned… the adventure begins September 28th.
I wanted to resurrect my blog by posting the link to my personal page for the 2018 Scott’s Firefighter Stair Climb. I’m almost at my goal of $1800! Every bit counts!
I was twenty three years old, visiting San Fransisco, California for an Angels & Airwaves concert. Before handing my card to the Starbucks cashier, I knew it was coming. I clamped my teeth down hard, tensing up my facial muscles, the eye twitch slowly pulsating.
Then he asked.
A wild card of a question, the nail in the coffin, a real winner.
“Do you know Sarah Palin?” followed by “Can you actually see Russia from your house?”
Damn him. Damn her. I mean most of us don’t even like Sarah Palin but in her defense, for her statement to be taken literally, you must be an idiot. I mean I took at as “her house” meaning from some area of Alaska and she meant it as… like “welcome to MY HOUSE” or “this is my turf!”. Technically you can see Russia from Little Diomede Island, Alaska.
My response to him was yes, I know her, we party with her all the time in our igloos where we ice fish from our living room. I told him this concrete jungle was a major culture shock to me and that this was my first time in a Starbucks. If you didn’t know I was a smart ass troll, now you do.
…”Are there any trees in Alaska?”…
I woke up to another five inches of snow on top of the two feet we accumulated last week. Don’t get me wrong, I’m ready for summer, but I’m glad this years winter feels very much like an old school Alaskan winter. The last few winters have been terrible, brown, and warm. I mean I’m so excited to actually be able to smell dog shit this spring.
Days like today always make me nostalgic. Seeing the lawn with a fresh blanket of untouched snow while the tree branches hang heavy. The power lines bounding up and down and our vehicles looking like a snow cube with wheels. It was snowing hard this morning and the snowflakes were the size of half dollars. The wind was kicking up too, making visibility mildly poor. I love it.
I’m sure my outsider friends get sick of me always talking Alaska up but I just can’t help myself. Just about everyone has some kind of pride overload with their home town or state. But ours is just a litttttttttttle bit better and as I’ve said, you’re entitled to your wrong opinion but I assure you, ours IS better.
But what makes us truly better? What annoys the shit out of us? Why do some of us hold ourselves to a higher standard? There are probably a million reasons/answers and to be honest I don’t have enough time in my lifetime to explain each one, so I asked all of you, my friends on FB, those who have known me for most of my life and those who I’ve known for only a few years.
“Are you part of the United States?”
“The summers here in Alaska are perfect even though the sky is bright into the night. Fishing, camping, mudding and hunting is GREAT! Traveling in Alaska may take hours but the drive is so beautiful, it doesn’t matter.Winters are fun for some and not so much for the ones who don’t like the cold but you cannot deny that the snow doesn’t make everything look amazing. There is ice fishing, snowshoeing, ice skating, snowboarding, skiing and snow machining! Yes, we here in Alaska call it snow machining! So, if you want to “fit in” and not look like a tourist, remember to call it that.
“I went to visit family in Louisiana back in the summer of 2005. I was 15 and a girl who was 18 asked me if we had houses, roads, and cars but the winner of questions was when she asked me if we had cats in Alaska. I was sitting there surrounded by about 7 other teens who were just waiting for an answer”
-Danielle Darlyn Rheault
“Is it like….night time all the time there?”
“When I moved to FL someone asked me if we had different money in Alaska? I assume she was thinking about Canada, but still…..lol”
“Also the thing I miss most about Alaska is the down to earth attitude from people and people always willing to help you on the road. It just doesn’t happen here. People aren’t into the latest fashion trends or superficial shit like they are in the lower 48 for some reason, we’re truly our own little world”
“My tire blew out on a main road when I was (obviously) pregnant, it took 5 minutes for someone to pull over and help me, and the guy told me that I was lucky because “people around here don’t stop to help”. He wasn’t trying to be a dick about it, as he was happy to help me and tried to refuse my 10$ I gave him for stopping. When I got back to work (I was a delivery driver at the time) ALL my co workers were like “Oh wow, you’re lucky someone stopped!”
“My most memorable Alaska ditch moment was hitting a patch of black ice coming off the muldoon exit and the truck behind me immediately stopped, pulled me out, AND followed me to eagle river walmart, one of the girls even rode with me to make sure i got there safely!”
“Do you ever see penguins?”
“People would leave their cars unlocked in the Bush in case the car needed to be moved to make room for the snowplows and graters. People in the Lower 48 looked at me like I had three heads when I told them I wasn’t used to locking my car.”
“Is there anything to do in Alaska?”
Nope not at all so you probably should just stay exactly where you’re at. Ok I’m kidding. There’s loads to do here but honestly 80% of it is outdoor stuff, so if that’s your thing, you’d be in heaven. I’m not even too outdoorsy but I can appreciate it enough to just enjoy being out side, even if it is mowing the lawn three times a day, or picking up sticks in the yard, or finding simple little things to do just to keep me outside. My friend Stephen Griffin use to say “sleeping in during the summer is a waste of a day” and I still believe that to this day. I still think that Alaska is one of the last places where imagination actually still comes into play when entertaining yourself. Yeah we have clubs, bars, theaters, malls, blah blah it’s all there with a small town feel that even makes THOSE different.
It’s really annoying when people don’t even have the slightest knowledge on Alaska. I mean the first few you run into are fine but eventually, it gets old. I remember in the first grade, we had to memorize all the states, write them in on a blank map, as well as the province codes (AK,AR,MN,FL, etc.). “Is Alaska part of the US?” yes, yes we are. There are 50 stars on that flag and who exactly do you think number 49 and 50 are? So if you ever hear the term AK49, now you know, Alaska, the 49th state mtherfcker represent whaaat.
When did we become a state? We became a state on Jan. 3rd, 1959. We have a population of 736,732 as of 2014. Our state bird is the Willow Ptarmigan and we are known as “the last frontier” and YES, we are the biggest state. Sorry Texas, you just don’t cut it. You’re cute being in second place and what not, but no….sit down….all the way down…yay good girl you did it! Now stay.
“Do you have electricity in Alaska?”
“I visited New York for a few weeks. It was terrible and everyone was out for themselves it seemed. I instantly missed the community we have. As soon as someone found out I was from Alaska they seemed to feel sorry for me, as if I had a tough life in such a rough place. But honestly I’m glad Alaska isn’t easy to live in. If i wanted to live in an easy mindless place, then I suppose I’d choose anywhere in the lower 48”
“Alaska is just a frozen wasteland”
That was actually said by some kid on the internet while I was playing World Of Warcraft. I made him feel real stupid shortly after, it was refreshing. It’s amazing the image folks have about our state, probably from all the stupid ass shows that have come out over the last ten or fifteen years. I use to want us noticed and on the map but now that I think of it, I prefer to be in the shadows of mystery. Hell I prefer people to still think we are located in the Gulf of Mexico. However google is an amazing tool, I mean we just got it a year ago here in Alaska and we’ve learned so much about flux capacitors and instant messaging and moving pictures, you should try to look up Alaska sometime! I promise we aren’t all like this. I’m just the voice that speaks what everyone probably thinks. It’s a dirty job but someone has to do it.
“I really want to pet a bear”
“Do you guys have cars to get around?”
“Is it ever green in Alaska?”
I suppose our “small town feel” is much like any other small town community, only ours feels state wide. I love the fact that you can be anywhere in the world and as soon as you run into another “Alaskan” you instantly form a bond. Kind of like a friendly neighbor vibe type thing.
As kids, we are taught that playing in subzero temps is okay and perfectly safe, snow days and school being cancelled rarely ever happens (three in my entire school career from kindergarten to my senior year). One of the best looks on an outsider’s face is after I’ve told them we don’t shut down for snow storms. In fact I don’t think I ever had a “snow day” due to actual snow because usually it’s when we get loads of freezing rain and everything turns into an ice rink. They would only keep us kids inside for recess if it was -30 or worse (now days its probably -20). We would bundle up and go have fun outside. Believe it or not, when you are cold, its best to actually move because movement creates heat and heat creates smiles and happy faces yay!! But when you don’t move, and you lock up, you will die. When you die while locked up, you’re found in the same way, frozen, pitiful and blue.
Most of us are educated with fire arms at a young age, hell my Uncle Steve bought me a .22 rifle at the age of five.
We use our imagination outside….a lot. Pretty sure as a kid, we taught ourselves a primitive version of shelter building and surviving in the wild. Not even kidding when I say I could construct you a nice little post zombie shanty that could sustain through winter. Try me.
“It’s just cold all the time there..”
“Where else but Alaska do you find this kind of beauty and make such wonderful memories with your children?”
“You’re bragging about Alaska all the time, chill out”
“I’ve never been to Alaska, but it’s not my cup of tea”
Toooootally fine and we understand and I promise you we will forget you even said that in like…. wait…what did you say? I forgot. I do encourage all to visit Alaska though. Really….I do. But you have to have an honest curiosity. If you don’t, and you expect it to be like where you live, then you’ll be let down. Then, like a disappointed customer, you’ll spread the negative review to an average 15-20 people. We already get a bad rep from stupid inaccurate t.v. shows and loud mouth politicians…. and people who can’t Google. It does get annoying when they have an idea of how life looks like in a third world country and compare this idea to what it might be like in Alaska, only with snow.
Oh look, it’s groundhog day, looks like we have six weeks of winter left. Well…No shit.
Sorry I was distracted.
“How do you stay warm inside?”
We use ancient alien technology from the planet Argus that harnesses the power of the sun and stores it in our own fusion cells which we then use to channel through flux capacitor copper lines known as “baseboard heating”. Some people are fancy and can afford to upgrade to a forced air type heat, which feeds off the same system. Crazy huh?
Yeah this blog is all over the place but that’s how I want it.
“Alaska > everywhere else because I have too much debt to move lol”
I’ll leave the rest of this rant open ended for those who message me their stories and annoyances, so I can add it as I go and it can be forever logged in the never ending, living, breathing, void of the internet.
And FYI, there are no freaking penguins in Alaska.
Almost daily I think about continuing my blog, but then I forget. I’m not sure what the difference these short updates are as compared to my bombardments of Facebook status posts. Maybe I just admire typing on a much bigger white wall of pixels. Or maybe it feels more professional doing it on my WordPress, which I know generates audiences from all over the world, reading my toilet humor rants and reviews.
So for the update, I’m still living off of “unenjoyment” (thanks Adam for that new word). Applying for jobs only to be turned down by the simple ones, even places where I’ve had years of experience in anyway. The usual answer from them is “we just aren’t interested” or “we’ve decided to go with other candidates”. The little money I do get from my fire department shifts as well as the unemployment has been enough to cover my end of the bills. My kickass hard working wife has taken up the rest of the slack, so I’m forever thankful for that.
I’ve decided to become a “self student” ? Not sure if that’s a thing but it is now because I said so, since I have so much time on my hands, and I’ve become part of another family, the Central Matsu Fire Department, I might as well take advantage of all things available to me. I’ve picked up an EMT 1 study book, dusted off my First Responder 8th edition EMT book, started on my Fire Fighter Essentials book, and most recently, my Hazmat Ops book, which is a prerequisite for my Fire Fighter 1 this fall. It has the highest failure rate, about 50% I was told, so of course this has become priority. I’ve never been study smart or book smart so I do my best with at least an hour or two a day, just reading through and getting familiar, highlighting, tabbing, and a lot of googling.
I’ve also just recently landed an interview with Water Rescue on Tuesday. I’m still 50/50 about it only because I’d like to put 100% to my Hazmat studying but we’ll see. Nicole and I have California coming up in March to see her family. We wanted to do Vegas as well with my sisters and mom but just couldn’t swing it like we wanted to. Until then, stay safe, stay warm, & don’t play with fire.
I’ll keep this one short and sweet, since I prefer my blog to be about travels and toilet humor, mostly.
Spring of 2016 I was placed into the long process of becoming a volunteer fire fighter for Central Mat-su. From minor application errors, to a physical ability test, an interview, tracking down medical records, a wild land test, 3 weeks of training Tuesday-Sunday, a written test and a practical test, I finally made it on. It’s been a busy month. In order to do all this, I needed to take off a whole hitch which means I was off for six weeks. This required me to go on a leave of absence (LOA). On the Saturday of my written test, just after I found out I passed, I received a phone call from my general foreman that they needed to let me go due to “lack of work” around the field. For a moment I worried but then shortly after I realized this was one door closing and another opening. I’ve been wanting off slope for awhile now so after the short worry, I was relieved. I’m thankful for my wife for taking on the brunt of the bills while I search for a side job that allows me to continue the fire service. Lord knows I hate asking her for money, and it wont be the last time but hopefully I get more income rolling in soon.
On a side note, I do believe I was actually the only one laid off from my job, even though I was told that “I wasn’t the first and I wont be the last”. At least no one I know was laid off so I’ve determined that it was on a personal level with management as to why I was let go. Since it already seemed like a pain in their ass that I was trying to better myself rather than spend 30 years on an oil field. I mean God forbid someone trying to leave the oil field right? As far as I’m concerned, they can keep their oil field and their politics. As for all my friends up there, I’ll see you at our annual BBQ’s!